My World

aksjdfh;

2009-05-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

I want to get over this
but know i cant
wish i was whole
but then again
when was i ever

It's amazing how a little razor can consume all your thoughts.
Even if you're not doing anything, it's still in my mind always.

Goodnight my children

2009-04-27T19:56:00.000-07:00

Tonight I edited my Blog for the first time in forever.
and I'd like to say goodnight
I'm on the phone with haley and i have her sleeping in my ear
:)
well I'll rant on here tomorrow hopefully
and so until then,
SPREAD THE PEACE

-bryanna

ehhem.. haley has some sexual desires.

2008-07-19T17:52:00.000-07:00

haleymott93 (8:43:52 PM): no way. you dont.
haleymott93 (8:43:55 PM): ok?
haleymott93 (8:44:03 PM): you dont.
paraedge93 (8:44:10 PM): i just drank a whole gatorade
haleymott93 (8:44:27 PM): woah.
paraedge93 (8:44:53 PM): from the time you said, "no way. you dont." till when i started typing "i just drank a whole gatorade"
paraedge93 (8:44:55 PM): wow
paraedge93 (8:45:01 PM): i chugged that fast
haleymott93 (8:45:01 PM): hahahahaha
haleymott93 (8:45:07 PM): yeah you did.
paraedge93 (8:45:15 PM): that was fantastic
haleymott93 (8:45:30 PM): yes it was.
haleymott93 (8:45:33 PM): and so are you.
paraedge93 (8:45:38 PM): you too
haleymott93 (8:45:44 PM): =]
haleymott93 (8:45:48 PM): thank you
paraedge93 (8:46:08 PM): now excuse me while i go puke up my breakfast. =P
haleymott93 (8:46:19 PM): gah.
paraedge93 (8:46:23 PM): haha
haleymott93 (8:46:26 PM): =[
paraedge93 (8:46:35 PM): im not really gonna puke
haleymott93 (8:46:54 PM): ok, good
haleymott93 (8:46:56 PM): =]
paraedge93 (8:47:43 PM): i dont have anything to X . X anyways
paraedge93 (8:48:06 PM): i havn't eaten anything but a half a bowl of cereal this morning
haleymott93 (8:48:17 PM): grrr.
haleymott93 (8:48:22 PM): why?
paraedge93 (8:48:26 PM): and it was one of those little kid plastic bowls
paraedge93 (8:48:34 PM): because im not hungry
haleymott93 (8:49:09 PM): ok.
paraedge93 (8:49:29 PM): i just don't eat
haleymott93 (8:49:39 PM): but you NEED to.
paraedge93 (8:49:43 PM): i cant
haleymott93 (8:50:04 PM): fine.
haleymott93 (8:50:21 PM): but if you get dick will you let me help you?
haleymott93 (8:50:26 PM): &SICK
haleymott93 (8:50:29 PM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH!
haleymott93 (8:50:32 PM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
paraedge93 (8:51:05 PM): hahahahhaha. wow thats the worst thing u've ever messed up on while saying
paraedge93 (8:51:09 PM): HAHAHAAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA
paraedge93 (8:51:12 PM): oh my god haley
haleymott93 (8:51:12 PM): i no.
haleymott93 (8:51:15 PM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
paraedge93 (8:51:22 PM): wow
paraedge93 (8:51:23 PM): wow
paraedge93 (8:51:24 PM): haha
haleymott93 (8:51:35 PM): im still laughing.
paraedge93 (8:51:42 PM): i'm blogging that
haleymott93 (8:51:51 PM): are you?

haze of unbearable confusion

2008-07-16T15:31:00.001-07:00

mylife.mysoul.mymind.myinspiration.myworld.myday.mynight.myeverything.
there's this person that has come and scooped me up and i wish it didn't have to be this way because really it sucks i mean i love 'them' its just, i don't like the feeling that someone has taken over my life and i can't be with them its crazy
i want to be able to be with 'them' forever i want to be able to lay down and feel like I'm complete because i am honestly in love i have this feeling of closeness that can't even begin to be compared or explained its like a million butterflies flying inside me when i think about 'them'. it's honestly crazy i don't know what I'd do without 'them' i wish every moment of my life could just revolve around making 'them' happy. but i don't seem to be able to do that right. i don't know. i want to have 'them' in my life now and forever. i feel like 'they' are needed to make me be able to live, breathe, and function. but i bet that's just an exaggeration. this feeling of helplessness is unbearable. i don't know what I'm going to do. i feel like 'they' are my match. like i believe that in this world everyone has one true match. and you're lucky if you find them. and i think 'they' are my true match. because i can't live without 'them'. 'they' make everyday special. and its just like whenever i see that 'they' are online, or i see 'their' name on my caller ID i just freak out. its like i can't breathe I'm so excited. sometimes i wish that i hadn't met 'them' because now i can't imagine life without 'them' and i know that I'll never find someone to replace what 'they' were to me. and i know that nobody can make me feel the same way. and that is really okay. because I'd rather be with 'them' than with someone else and i know it.

expression

2008-07-15T12:19:00.000-07:00

my way of seeing the world. is so fantastic. every little thing seems fantastic to me. like a miracle is being born every second. if i could just let you look through my eyes, you'd be very suprised. music is the key to our souls. we expand our horizons because we listen and realize that there is so much to be discovered. we renew the people we once were. music inspires everyone. that's what it was created for. expressions. it was made so that we had a way to express exactly how we feel. we experience life the way it's supposed to be, through books. we go off and fantasize about what if you could change places with the person in the book. YOU put yourself in a character's shoes and realize that you have such a fantastic feeling. you can read and find your imagination that was once locked up. nothing else can bring it out like that. now for my oppinion on pictures. well some people have a natural tallent. they can capture an amazing mirable through a lense. its like for me. once i am behind a camera, i can just let myself go. i can take pictures of the world... the way i see it. every beautiful thing that you all just look past and take for granted. there are so many things you can discover that you never realized before. i love to take pictures because it just kinda lets you show your soul and lets you let people know exactly how you feel. you can put emotion into it. you can show the problems in society by something as simple as taking a picture of an ashtray. anything is possible. well i am all about expression. i love to express myself and i love to let people know whats going on in my mind. what is swirling around in theis head. because they need to know.